You've put into words what I've been living through in the last 3 years since my mother's stroke left her a cruel imitation of the incredible woman I knew growing up.
People want you to 'get closure' and neatly place your grief in a box, or give it a shape that fits into the puzzle that will eventually be your life story.
Yeah, my pain doesn't work to a schedule, motherfuckers. It doesn't take 'notes' on how to be more palatable in social situations. It can't be edited.
"Don't you dare try to make my grief easier for you to bear."
I haven't felt a line as much as that for a very long time.
Thank you for sharing this, Felicia.